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Making my own decisions

It's now been 6 weeks of steady exercise, including sticking to the routine while on travel to India.  My eating habits have wandered a bit but I know what I need to do. Recently I have decided that I'm going to live the life I want and not what everyone else wants.  All my life I have been ruled by someone else making decisions, telling me what to do or wanting to make the right decisions to please everyone else but not really doing what I want. I realized the 1st time I made a decision / choice for myself  was when I met my now husband and decided to marry him; 22 years later it still is the best decision I made.  He has always supported me; which is something that is unusual for me an it's taken me awhile to realize this.  I've always played life safe rather than risking and following my dreams/desires. Triathlon was my 2nd decision, by me and for me.  I have neglected those desires because of work pressures.  I realize that my current job wil...

Learning to focus

The first time in a very long time I have stuck to an exercise and healthy eating regimen for 3 weeks and I'm super proud of myself.  I'm thick headed and it takes me a long time to remember what is important and I when I get off track I really get off track.  I have been letting work rule my life for a very long time.  Work stopped me from doing Ironman Texas 2018 earlier this year and it's been downhill since.  I contiue to struggle with that decision and I'm realizing how much it pisses me off that I let that take something away from me.  So the only way to get past this is to get back to putting myself first. Tomorrow I turn 48 and I know that I have wasted many of my years doing things I didn't want to do. I want to make that turn, and I want it to be a permanent turn.  I am my happiest when I focus on me, being healthy and enjoying life.  Work is work, it will never give me as much gratification as I get from taking care of myself, so here we...