I'm lost.....I'm off track.....having a hard time finding my way.....getting back on track. It happens, right? You think when you have a plan that you can stick to it and keep moving. I haven't done a very good job of that the past few weeks.....this week was really bad, haven't worked out yet this week, I say yet because Saturday and Sunday are still possible. I've said it before, I have this problem a few weeks before a race, just can't stay on track. This week more so than normal because of a disruption in my routine. I have to learn to figure this out and how to not fall so far off track. Going forward it becomes even more important. I have to learn to fight back.....right now not sure I feel like fighting. So have I screwed up.....don't know.....do I want to quit.....sadly at times.....can I still do this.....don't know.....have I given up...................................I don't know that answer yet, let me sleep on it. ...
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10/12/15 - 10/18/15 Swim - 1 Bike - 1 Run - 1 Strength Training - 0 Mileage (weekly / 2015) Swim - 2,300 yds / 58.9 miles Bike - 28 miles / 1232.4 miles Run - 4 miles / 364.43 miles My self lecture / motivation clearly didn't work for me but I'm back on track this week - promise. The positive things I will take from last week: I continue to maintain my weight despite a lack of working out. The sessions I did do were high quality and I felt strong and put in a solid effort. Despite not doing the necessary training, I'm not going to beat myself up because that will accomplish nothing. Three weeks till Austin 1/2 and the weather is starting to cool down, has me a bit worried about clothing selection. The traveling over the next few weeks will make training tough and I know that I won't be able to get all my swimming because of a lack of access to a pool but I'll do what I can.
I continue to get in this rut, lack of motivation before races and I worry that this could create a much larger problem when I start Ironman training. But I realize that my training sessions immediately following a day or 2 of rest are better - I'm stronger, faster and can push harder. One always worries if you take too much time off you will lose strength, speed, etc but I realize with fewer sessions I'm getting more out of each session. So I'm not going to let that get me down, although it's not something you can do every week but every once in awhile I need to listen to my body. I'm also realizing I need to stop listening to what my head is telling me. If you think too much about the future and let it eat you up, then your mind becomes a negative, depressive mush that you end up hating. So I'm going to work hard on keeping the negative thoughts in check. This is a long road, I'm not the first to travel it and will definitely not be t...