Taking back control

Me- "Hello - it's me!"
Them - "Who is that?"
Me - "I deserved that"
Them - "Go away!!"
Me - "NO, I'm taking my life back!"

So I've been lost for awhile and today I found myself again. I have been letting THEM take control and run my life.......and the "ME" let it happen. I have no excuses, just the same thing that always happens. I let others lead me and I stop leading myself. I stopped saying "I'm first" but today I realized they will take whatever I give them and will NEVER give back more or the same that I give them; they will NEVER be able to give me what I can give myself and they will NEVER care about me! I have to get back to caring about myself. So today I reminded myself who is #1 in my life - ME!

I have wasted 2 weeks of my 24 week Ironman training plan, I have gained WAY too much weight and I'm VERY much out of shape. April 2017 will be here before I know it and I had goals that I missed but I can't dwell in the past and need to move forward because that is what I have control over.

Life is too damn short to be dedicated to everything but yourself.

Here are my goals for the remainder of the week:

Workouts - 2 of 3 days
Training Schedule - get my training schedule setup for the next month
Weight - weigh in tomorrow and start tracking how much I need to lose to get to goal weight.
Water - 96 ounces a day
Blog - this helps me hold myself accountable - so updating at least every 2 weeks.

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