This past Tuesday I made the decision that I would not be participating in 2018 Ironman Texas and a couple of days later I'm still so very ok with that decision.
From the day I signed up I was never 100% invested but knew that I would get in the groove, but I strugged and on Tuesday morning trying to get 2 hours in on the spin bike at the gym, I realized I was not happy. The tears started to fall and I was not having fun....and the feeling that has been there for awhile became reality, I did not want to do this race. I made the decision not to do the race - because my heart was not in it and I was forcing myself to train and try to get excited about the race. I knew if I forced myself to do IMTX2018 I would end up hating triathlons and feared that I would never race again. I LOVE trithlons and LOVE the bike, so when I find myself crying doing something I LOVE I knew I needed to stop.
I have informed my close friends and some family.....I was worried I may disappoint a few people but at the end of the day what I felt is all that mattered and if they loved me they would understand and support me, which they did.
I will still train and still plan to race this year and my new challenge is to podium at Tri for Old Glory and Olympic distance race in July.
My goals as I move past IMTX2018 is to get healthy - lose the weight, get physically and mentally strong and work on speed for this new race challenge.
From the day I signed up I was never 100% invested but knew that I would get in the groove, but I strugged and on Tuesday morning trying to get 2 hours in on the spin bike at the gym, I realized I was not happy. The tears started to fall and I was not having fun....and the feeling that has been there for awhile became reality, I did not want to do this race. I made the decision not to do the race - because my heart was not in it and I was forcing myself to train and try to get excited about the race. I knew if I forced myself to do IMTX2018 I would end up hating triathlons and feared that I would never race again. I LOVE trithlons and LOVE the bike, so when I find myself crying doing something I LOVE I knew I needed to stop.
I have informed my close friends and some family.....I was worried I may disappoint a few people but at the end of the day what I felt is all that mattered and if they loved me they would understand and support me, which they did.
I will still train and still plan to race this year and my new challenge is to podium at Tri for Old Glory and Olympic distance race in July.
My goals as I move past IMTX2018 is to get healthy - lose the weight, get physically and mentally strong and work on speed for this new race challenge.
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